Letting Go

Good morning peeps and what a beautiful morning it is. I have been on my 

on my run and will go to the gym soon. I sit and savor my last cup of coffee 

of the day. I feel so energetic and happy as if I am floating on cloud nine today. 

I had so much running though my head lately about my life in general. Will I 

be loved? Can I be loved? I know that I love, but am afraid of the out come.  I

was listening to Garth Brooks the other day and the song "Unanswered Prayers"

started to play and I realized something that I had imagined could not ever come 

true. I had my chance or did I really? Even though, things didn't work out as 

they should have I know that nothing shall ever come of it. I want it so much

but if it was meant to be it would have happened the first time. 

Love something enough and if it was meant to be it will return to you. But, it 

needs to be welcome with open arms or it shall fly away again. To open ones heart 

is a big thing and it takes swallowing a lot of pride and opening yourself up to be

hurt all over again. No one wants to be hurt so once they have been hurt enough 

they wait on the next time and it is always in the back of your mind. They know

it is time to move on that nothing shall ever work out as they wished, hoped or

imagined. 

Life is good for you and I would only be in the way. I am meant to spend life alone and 

alone is where I will be, where I will remain throughout all time. I am not lovable or

can anyone love me, ever love me. I await a prince charming which does not exist

nor has he ever. I thought he was mine for a little while, but the world rained 

down it's wrath upon me, so that a love between us could never be. Good Night 

Sweet Prince I Set You Free.