Monday, October 15, 2012

To Love Or Not?



I feel I am a extraordinary woman if you can look past the surface of what society thinks
is pretty. As I have said many, many times I am just Amber no more, no less. I have a lot 
of supportive, exceptional friends on facebook. For the most part I know most of them
personally, and have bikers, blue collar workers, that I would trust my life with, 
writers, doctors, nurses, lab techs, bankers, stock brokers, architects just to name a few.
As I love these people for who they are they in return love me for who I am. I always
have someone wanting me to talk to there teenage daughters, to show them that they can 
be anything they want to be in life as long as they apply themselves. I am a poster
child for people against all odds becoming all that they can be. I have worked hard,
stayed out of trouble, never did drugs although drugs were common place in my 
household as a child. 

A woman that does not know me from Adam's house cat made some startling 
accusations to me this week. I know I need to let it go, and the person sent
an apology to me through someone else, but it still hurts. I know I should not 
care about people with negative attitudes and what they think, but this is
how I feel. 

I feel I am a good person, and no matter the situation I would not have talked
to this woman in such a way. She wrote me countless emails and the first one
was very nice, but she went on and on and so I blocked her since she could 
email me because she was a friend of a friend. Then she found this blogger 
page and wrote in all the comment spaces. 

I have tried to ignore her words, but they cut like a knife. She hurt me and 
I have done nothing to her. I wrote to this person I have known for 
years and called things off. I don't want trouble and we were and 
are just friends. But, he doesn't want to let go. I do care for him
and they are not together now. OMG I tried to let her win, but she
can't win what she doesn't have. 

Dear Lord, I do not know what to do? I need strength and guidance,
Please help me to know what to do.