Rantings 3

I am really having a tough night. I have searched for sleep but it will not come. I have read my blogs and found typos that I cannot seem to fix I will look again tomorrow. I went out on another date tonight with Kyle and had a wonderful time. Tonight was the first time I invited him back to my house, but said when doing so ( don't expect anything ). I am moving on from a broken heart and I am finding it harder to trust people. The one person in the world I trusted above all others played games with my heart. I do forgive him, but I am a firm believer in Karma. 

I know someday there will be things that I have to answer for, but I feel what I done was without my knowledge. I try to be a good person and treat people the way I myself want to be treated. I am down to earth and I feel that all people are created equal. I do not put people down, but I try to lift them up. I have a smile for everyone even when I am feeling blue. 

Wake up world! I am awake and you should be too! Scream loudly so all can hear! Proclaim that nothing or  anyone shall defeat you! Take back your life tonight! Let those who deliberately use you know they have not defeated you. Stand up and be counted among the survivors of the heart.  

Growing Up

There comes a time when we must grow-up and become accountable for our actions. We must stop blaming our parents, the boyfriend or girlfriend that broke our heart and move on with life. Life does not wait around while we throw our little pity parties, because someone hurt our feelings. Yes, there are many things that may happen in our lives that will destroy us if we let it. It could be losing a parent,a child, a sibling or the love of our life or sickness. It is hard to lose those we love most in the world. The pain is always there, but how we handle it is what makes or breaks us. 

So many times I personally have felt as if I cannot go on with life.I have been so depressed I simply could not get out of bed to start my day. Then I learn to live one day at a time, forgetting yesterday, living for today and focusing on tomorrow when it arrives. I have such good advice, but it is a everyday battle to achieve this way of living. It is certainly not for the weak of heart. 

When you think all is well in your life finally someone will come along and pull the rug out from beneath you. There are many people not happy in there own lives that they feel they must try to sabotage the life of others. I have fallen again recently, but I am striving to regain my composer and living life again as it was before the turmoil began . My life is not always perfect, but always manage to fix what was broken. Hearts cannot be mended they simply stay broken, but the person must adapt to life without someone they love. I am a survivor I will survive what ever comes my way, but trusting people now is a thing of the past. 

I shall strive to be my best, I will at some point conquer my fears, I will change what I can and give the rest to God, He and he alone shall sustain me,