Good morning peeps and what a beautiful morning it is. I have been on my
on my run and will go to the gym soon. I sit and savor my last cup of coffee
of the day. I feel so energetic and happy as if I am floating on cloud nine today.
I had so much running though my head lately about my life in general. Will I
be loved? Can I be loved? I know that I love, but am afraid of the out come. I
was listening to Garth Brooks the other day and the song "Unanswered Prayers"
started to play and I realized something that I had imagined could not ever come
true. I had my chance or did I really? Even though, things didn't work out as
they should have I know that nothing shall ever come of it. I want it so much
but if it was meant to be it would have happened the first time.
Love something enough and if it was meant to be it will return to you. But, it
needs to be welcome with open arms or it shall fly away again. To open ones heart
is a big thing and it takes swallowing a lot of pride and opening yourself up to be
hurt all over again. No one wants to be hurt so once they have been hurt enough
they wait on the next time and it is always in the back of your mind. They know
it is time to move on that nothing shall ever work out as they wished, hoped or
imagined.
Life is good for you and I would only be in the way. I am meant to spend life alone and
alone is where I will be, where I will remain throughout all time. I am not lovable or
can anyone love me, ever love me. I await a prince charming which does not exist
nor has he ever. I thought he was mine for a little while, but the world rained
down it's wrath upon me, so that a love between us could never be. Good Night
Sweet Prince I Set You Free.
