I had a wonderful Valentines Day

It started like most other Valentines Day I had work or school, but Kyle and I had plans for when I had finished at work. I was off work at 6:45 pm and I rushed home to get ready since we were going out to eat tonight. Since we have only known each other this makes three weeks I mentioned that gifts were out of the question this year, but we could get each other a card. I went out Monday night and stood there by the cards in "Wally world" at least a hour trying to find a card that did not say I love you and there were none to be found. Then I decided to make one at home, and just change the words around to what I wanted it to say. I found a picture of Starbucks coffee beans spilling out of a cup I found on Google and I placed the picture on the front with the words Happy Valentines Day. 

On the inside of the card I wrote : 

Thank God, For Chance Encounters,

Spilled Coffee was the reason we met,

Although, we do not know each other

that well yet, this encounter with you,

I will never forget. I cannot say that

I love you yet, but for now I feel that

this encounter with you I shall never

regret. 

I know I seem cheap, but I didn't want either of us to spend money on elaborate gifts when we were not even lovers yet. It has been me, but he has been patient with me. I feel that too many people go by physical attraction alone, and then you wake up one day and realize you do not even have anything to talk about with this person. I find it important in getting to know someone before you throw sex into the equation. This way no one walks away with a broken heart. 

When Kyle arrived to pick me up he had a large arrangement of pink roses, a card and sugar free donuts. YUM! 

But, Kyle broke the rules by spending his money on me a no no, but I will let it slide this time. I did feel like a cheap, uncaring person by only having a card I made in photo shop. I got over it and we went out, but I had the waiter give me the check and I paid for our meal. When Kyle realized I paid he was visibly upset then I really felt bad. He stopped at a ATM and handed me the money and asked me to take it. I explained that I paid since I had nothing for him and how bad I felt that he had broken the rules. We were both sorry for crossing boundaries so we kissed and made up and the rest of the night was magical.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY KYLE

maybe you can read this someday, but until then I just realized tonight I am happy with you.  

Darkness & Light

There it is

The darkness
Chasing me

Hiding behind every bend
Seeping into the cracks and crevices
Trying to surprise me

I see it
I hear it
I feel it

I run in every possible direction
I hide from it
I trick it

And yet it finds me
Always

Somehow the darkness
Moving like water
Unstoppable
Blankets over me
Blinds me for a while
Incapacitates me

I hate the dark

There it is
The light

It chases me too
Seeping into the cracks and crevices

I see it
I hear it
I feel it

It finds me
Always

And I run toward it
Making the blanket of darkness lift slightly

And the light holds up the blanket
So that I can run

And get a head start
Outrunning the darkness

While the light stands guard
For all its worth

I love the light

Written By A Wilson 2012

Blogging Again

...this is a conundrum!

I've been MIA for far too long and lost my connection with most people on here due to my absence.

That in and of itself was not the problem for me. (Although it's bizarre trying to re-introduce myself!)

For me the problem was that I felt like I revealed just a little too much about myself in a not entirely anonymous blog.

A few people I know in real life (you know, like I could call them if I wanted to!) ended up finding and reading my blog which is OK I guess, but I initiated this space so that I could dump my innermost thoughts, desires and fumble my way to a more creative me.

I ended up revealing too much about my actual life and the extensions of it. This was supposed to be about me and it ended up being more about my daughter and other people. Not that it's a bad thing to write about my feelings. To spill my heart and soul! But I want a place to be different from my everyday me...

Make sense?

No?

Fine.

The cheese stands alone... :)

So, I decided to sort of start over.


Essentially, I've been hiding under a rock for a while trying to figure out my life.

I suppose we're always trying to figure out our lives, right?! Hiding under a rock doesn't help!

All I know is that I am making it through another winter and now I'm ready for the spring!

So, let me get caught up on what's happening around here and then I'll try to get back on the proverbial horse and get my web feet back in motion!

Hugs to you all!

Happy Valentines Day

It's Valentines Day and I have a Valentine.

Although, it is someone I just met I will be proud to have Kyle As My Valentine!

Looking for a new love interest and Kyle seems to be the one.

He is patent, kind and caring and he spoils me silly.

He is everything a girl wants in a man and more.

I am happy when I am with him and sad when we are apart, but please don't tell me it is love for we have a long way to go to get to that point. 

He does not know of my blogs and I am not posting to facebook, so shhh! he shall never know my true feelings. 

I know Valentines Day are for lovers, but it makes you feel good to know someone cares. 

I AM HAPPY! 

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!