Been a while since I blogged, but I lost my muse again ;)
Nothing much going on here with me, since I am single and some what
keeping to myself. I went out last weekend after traveling into the city,
but what was a good night for me turned into a disaster and I lost a friend.
There have been so many things that have not went my way, but I have not
blamed others for my own mistakes.
I have had tragedy in my life, but crawled out of that hole I placed my own
self in and went on with life. I cannot blame God, my family, friends etc. for
things beyond my control. Life does not stand still, it does not wait on you
it revolves just as the earth and it doesn't matter if you are on board or not
it will go on with or without you. I chose to live, to my my life the best that
it can possibly be.
In a way I am old fashioned when it comes to relationships. I do not mess
with married men or men that are in long term relationships with women.
I would not want some woman to mess with my man, so I refuse to mess
with someone else man. I will never allow myself to come in second in a
man's life. If I cannot rate number one in someones life then they are
not worth wasting my time on.
So I choose to be single. Being single is not the worse thing that could
happen to someone, being with someone and being miserable is. I am
happy. I don't have to worry about cooking large meals, washing extra
clothes, and I can sleep all over the bed and there is no one to complain.
I can come and go as I like and not have a jealous man question me
about my every move. Oh and by the way it does take a hour to go
to the grocery store and back. 10 to 15 min there and then back
and then finding everything you need takes that long.
I have a lot of work to do and no time for a man at this point in
my life. If I am meant to be with someone I am sure that God
will send him to me and I will know. You can love and never
be loved in return, but I am not worried about it in the least.
Love is spontaneous and comes around when you least expect
it. If you dwell on finding love it will never come your way.
I am happy, content and need no one to validate me as a
woman, for I am woman. A woman that is a survivor, fighter,
and happy in my own shell. I will never give up, I will never
give in, my morals are who I am and I would never be me
without them. I refuse to worry about what things might have
been, but focus on a future that I see as bright.
I AM ME!
I AM WOMAN!
I WILL NEVER CHANGE,
BUT WILL REMAIN THE SAME
