Letting Go Although It Is Hard...

I cannot Hear This Song and Not Think Of You Jason...

I know life is over for us as we knew it. I know that you are gone from me forever, never to return. No it is not fair, but I have stopped questioning God about it. I know it was not his fault, my fault but just a freak accident. I know just because you died that night and that I love you that I do not have to die with you. For you see that is what I have done my love. I died a little more each day that I had to spend on this earth without you. I have said that I have searched for a love other than you, but in reality I just didn't want to be alone. But, as we both know that cannot work, and it is not fair to the person I am with as long as I am in love with you. 

I must admit since reading your love letters to me, it has helped me to heal. I am no longer out on that dark desolate road alone searching for you, but remembering us in the good times. We were so good together, we could finish each others sentences, and everyday was a good day as long as you were near. We read the paper to each other on Sunday's and it was my turn to read to you next. In fact that very next morning. That morning that never came or will never come again. We showered together and you washed my back and I washed yours. You loved to shave my legs and had even washed my hair in a basin. I can still feel the water that you pour upon my hair, massaging ever so gently. We were so hands on together and not just in a sexual way, but a sensual one. Something I have never known before or after. 

I am still letting go my love, yet I love the way you loved me. I am smiling at you today Jason and I just know you are smiling back. 

I don't want to fall asleep, cause I'd miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing...