I WILL SURVIVE

It is good to be back blogging again I really miss blogging when I can't. I know I always share too much info about myself which can be a bad thing, but telling about myself helps me face tomorrow or what ever comes my way. I am now recovering from surgery for a subdural hematoma which has been a major set back for me career wise, but I am very thankful to God that I am still here with a story to tell. I will still be living here in Baltimore a little longer than expected and I lost my drivers licence for 3 to 6 month due to a head injury. No one knows if something happened from a surgery I had some years back from a head injury or if the bleed started on it's own.

I am optimistic that everything will workout for me eventually. It is like "Murphy's Law" with me everything that can go wrong will, but eventually this black cloud looming over me shall lift and only good can come my way. I will not go into all the details of my life and why I raise this point "only I am due some good luck. Every time I am confronted with a new disaster within my life I think of the movie "Saving Private Ryan" a true story. It is where a woman has four son's and all are killed in the war so there is a troop assigned to search for her only surviving son and to send him back home alive. 

You wonder why bad things happen to good people? Some people receive more than there share of heartache, pain and suffering to last a lifetime and I have seemed to be one of those people. But, I think that God never gives us more than we can handle. I have came through so much victoriously, and I know this shall be the care once again. 

The only thing that I have never recovered from is the betrayal of a dear friend of many years, and that pain shall never subside. It is still there especially after going through something similar again and the outcome the same. I will never get to be friends ever again with this person and the thought tortures me at times. I thought we would always be friends no matter what......Well enough about the regrets in life I must once again get well and look forward to the future.

I am going to be alright after all I am a survivor. I will not dwell on the past, but yet seek my future and pursue it without faltering. I need no one but myself to pull myself up once again and start over with life. Life keeps kicking me, but I am a persistent bitch that keeps getting back up and fighting the obstacles that try to destroy me that try to bring me down.    

I WILL SURVIVE