Making Changes

Hey It's me again!  I have many, many things to blog about, but I must be semi private about my life and not disclose all details of it. I say this because I am a open book and have regretted my actions more than once. I really want to sit here and spill it all on my trusted keyboard and then add it among all the other blogs about my life. I started blogging this way so my therapist and I could look over my achievements in dealing with grief I had at the time. Looking back I said it helped and I wrote many poems and songs back then and shared them with my peeps. It did make me feel good to get feedback from others since I then felt I was on a hopeless journey alone. Now, I look at it at just easy access to me, my feelings and a way for people to read about my turmoil at the time and prey upon my weakness. I cannot really say now that blogging helped me in the long run. I now believe that it takes time to grieve and that not everyone's grief ease's at the same rate, since grief never goes away.

I will admit that I became addicted to blogging, but I shared way to much of my personal life with strangers. I have met some really good people that I still share a healthy friendship with still today from my years of blogging, but those are people I can still believe in and trust. I have someone new in my life that is afraid for me to share too much info in my blogging or share all my photos on facebook. Now I am making some changes in my life, and my networking. I know that some of you that read my blog will see I have made some changes already in my writing and have new topics that do not include poor me, or the throwing of pity parties. I have took down many photo's from facebook and not announcing I am going to bed now, going to the gym or what ever activity I may be ready to do at that time. Having the gym you workout in or where you are eating at the time on you're map only gives strangers a very good idea where you are and approach you. The guy I am seeing is not a paranoid schizophrenic, but only concerned with my safety and well being. He also only wants me to share my sexy photos with him. haha