A Perfect Day..

Just a perfect day

drink Sangria in the park

And then later

when it gets dark, we go home

Just a perfect day

feed animals in the zoo

Then later

a movie, too, and then home

Oh, it's such a perfect day

I'm glad I spend it with you

Oh, such a perfect day

You just keep me hanging on

You just keep me hanging on

Just a perfect day

problems all left alone

Weekenders on our own

it's such fun

Just a perfect day

you made me forget myself

I thought I was

someone else, someone good

Oh, it's such a perfect day

I'm glad I spent it with you

Oh, such a perfect day

You just keep me hanging on

You just keep me hanging on

You're going to reap just what you sow

You're going to reap just what you sow

You're going to reap just what you sow

You're going to reap just what you sow

Self Pity

Self pity is easily the most destructive of the non-pharmaceutical narcotics; it is addictive, gives momentary pleasure and separates the victim from reality.”
― John Gardner

The Miley Twerk!

I don't be a jerk about the twerk!

Okay.  I really tried to restrain myself.  I really did. I didn't want to add one more voice to the already blown out of proportion chorus chiming in on the recent Miley Cyrus performance.  And I don't like to rant. And I realize that it's quite likely that not one single person cares what I'm thinking about it.  But for some reason I feel compelled to share it anyway :). Here are 3 pieces of my mind on the topic.

1.  Miley Cyrus's performance was on the VMA's.  That's the MTV Video Music Awards.  Ya'll. Really?  MTV was racy in the early 90's.  It has grown exponentially more racy over the last 10 years. If you sat down to watch the VMA's on Sunday night, I'm not standing in judgement of that decision.  If you sat down to watch the VMA's on Sunday night expecting Laura Ingall's to walk out on stage in her smocked dress and play the harmonica with her Pa - I might be judging your concept of reality just a touch.  And if you were watching it with your children, please just be willing to take responsibility for what they saw.  Don't blame Miley or MTV.  They only have the influence over your children that you hand over to them.

2.  I'm sort of over all of the whining being done by parents who are furious that their daughter's former idol, Hannah Montana, has become something less worthy of their worship.  Please stop whining and start using this as an opportunity to explain the concept of idolatry to your children and then drive home the truth that only One is worthy of our worship, obsession, and undying devotion.  Only One.  And this does not come from a place of judgement.

3.  Several of the articles I read were expressing disdain that Miley's father, Billy Ray, tweeted this after her performance sparked a lot of negativity on twitter: "Thanking God for so many blessings tonight. Continue to pray for world peace. More love ... less hate."  He later claimed that his tweet wasn't in reaction to his daughter's performance.  But for me, that's neither here nor there, as I'm more surprised by people's reaction to his reaction.  People seemed surprised and accused him of being supportive and approving of her behavior based on that tweet.  People assumed that he is just resigned to the fact that this is who his daughter is and that he can't tame her.

HELP JASON!

I still wait for you, I will still wait for as long as it may take, 

I still long for your touch, your embrace, and I may be 

kidding myself, but I can almost feel you sometimes.

Not a day goes by that I do not speak with you and 

ask you all the questions I need to ask of someone, 

but I ask them of you since you are not judgmental and 

nothing I can say will change your mind about me.

You my love, love me above all others I know that.

Try as I may I have tried to let go. Yes, I talk to you daily, 

although,you never talk back I know your answers without 

them even being spoken. 

I need you now more than ever, my love. I can't keep filling

my days, and my dreams of you. I know you would not want that,

but it is safer for me. As long as I am Jason's girl no one can ever 

touch me, and nothing can ever harm me. 

I did it yet again my love I pushed away someone one I cared 

for, not because you wouldn't like them, but because I like them

a little too much. My life has been busy lately and everyone was 

trying to be loving and caring, but I did not have enough time in 

the day to do everything they wanted me to do. But, yet there 

was one special person that I should have made the time for, but

of course I didn't 

HELP JASON! 

Sorry About Last Week!

There has to be a better way to be me. I want to be someone people can't count on, and not someone that runs and hides when things get rough. For you see I never thought that last week would have been such a big deal yet it was. I had friends, family, colleagues making plans for me, to go to the beach, to come and visit me, making plans for going away parties, girl's night out parties etc. There was not enough hours in the day for all the plans they were throwing at me and expecting answers. I couldn't come up with any answers, well answers that would not hurt people so I ignored the entire situation. I know this was (cowardly) and for this I am sorry. But, I could not find words that would not hurt anyone. At one point I simply wanted to tear what hair I have out by the roots. This was something I did not want to deal with and I am truly sorry.

Then when I was sent gifts from parties I didn't even attend I prayed the ground would swallow me up. I am not a very good person right now, and I would not blame you if you hated or resented me. I simply could not choose out of fear of hurting someone, but I hurt the people I love after all. I do apologize, and I ask for your forgiveness.

Sincerely,

Shadows Shaken

Night transforms life's colors into grey scandalous
shadows
Bars march around the cold walls in confining tempo

Haunting images dance through the air with devious intent

The once comforting lullaby is repeated internally as a
devouring growl
Intermittent streaks of hope fly above offering a glimpse into the darkness.
Movement is enabled as abandon internal screams go unheard

Drifting out of body offers endless pictures of
expectations

Cradled in protective arms released to an endless fall with a
jolt

Hands approach lifting into consoling

unconditional love

"Our Unbelievable Love"

You are one in a million I've come to realize,
Laying in bed not wanting to close my eyes,
Seeing you smile so joyous while your dreaming,
Wondering if in your thoughts I'm streaming,
The tenderness radiating from your love,
Elevating my soul high above,
The land and the seas,
Its a cool summer breeze,
On a hot and muggy day,
You laying by my side I wouldn't have it any other way,
Being on my mind always instead of once in awhile,
Never thought again my heart would smile,
Savoring the recollects of every kiss,
Still amazed that your love can do something like this.