Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Stay at home this election cycle



It seems that so long as I have been aware of politics people having been telling me to VOTE as if everybody having the right to vote is a mandate to use that right. This ubiquitous command has for a long time bothered me. The underlying statement seems to be, "vote" in order to be considered a conscientious citizen no matter your knowledge of the people or policies up for election.

However, I would contend that if you are unaware of policies and parties on the table then you and everybody else is better off in general if you DO NOT VOTE. The reason is simple, if you vote without knowing who or what you are voting for then at best you could be watering down the votes of conscientious citizens who do choose to learn about the issues and the people seeking public office.

At worst, you become a puppet of those with the money and inclination to manufacture advertisements and lies to such an extent that your vote is bought without you even knowing it. You see an ad on the TV or someone passes on a false truth, not knowing it and that pushes you to vote. And now, more likely than not, your vote is being used as a weapon against thoughtful, well-informed citizens.

So, I have come up with a bit a rubric. For every candidate you are considering voting to support or voting against, list 5-10 positions and policies you know that they support or oppose. Then read one small article or opinion piece that addresses your candidates perspective on that issue to be sure that that is what the person believes. If after that point you still feel strongly enough in support of that person then consider voting. But the night before casting your vote, please take an additional twenty minutes to read and think over criticisms of your candidate and his or her rivals and their policies.

If neither candidate is to your liking, then find a third party or don't vote at all. A voting turnout of less than 60% should not be seen as an indictment of the voters but rather that of the national parties and the dominant political parties that poorly represent the will of the nation.

So if you find both political parties too repugnant to endorse, do your part and consider staying home this election cycle. I have always been advised not to complain if I fail to vote. Last election I voted Republican as always, but had doubts on casting my vote then. Now I have decided that I do not agree in the least with the policies the candidates are selling, so I will not cast a vote this year. The past few election years there have not been a candidate I believe in full heartily, so this will be this first year I refused to cast a vote.    


Tuesday, October 2, 2012

THE NOTEBOOK



I want to be swept away by an unsuspected love, I do not wish to see it coming. There is no one in my life, but there has always been the dream of someone to complete me and not change me, to fall in love with me with every fiber of there being as I would love to love someone that way again. As I said, and I was serious I am not looking for anyone now since I seem to get hurt, by men that cannot even commit to dating you, getting to know you, but distance always seems to play a major role in getting to know someone truly. 

I wish upon a star, a star so bright that I can feel it's warmth. I look at this star and wonder if there is someone out there looking at this star and having the same feelings as myself? I wonder if they know I am out here, that I too get lonely and wonder if my life will ever be complete. You don't have to have someone to love you to be a good person, a caring person, but it does feel good to know that someone cares for you. It may or may not be love, but you have a feeling that it will fulfill your every want or need. It will render you dumb and speechless as a school girl being kissed for the first time. 
  So yes, I dream of love, a love that will surpass the hands of time. I am Allie in the "Note Book" searching silently for my Noah. I want the Notebook ending. To give of yourself to one person for as long as we both shall live. It is the kinda of love that love stories are wrote about, but so seldom do we find a love such as this, but it is possible. I am a hopeless romantic that has been kissing toads. 

I give up until I can find my one true love, my soul mate the one who takes my breath away when he is not in the room. The one who's voice makes me quiver with excitement and touch I crave. Are you out there? Do you gaze upon this same star? Do I already know who you are? Are you ready for love? Does it excite you? When I find the one he will be able to answer yes to all these questions?

I WILL KNOW WHO IT IS! 



Wednesday, September 19, 2012

No Worries

Been a while since I blogged, but I lost my muse again ;)

Nothing much going on here with me, since I am single and some what
keeping to myself. I went out last weekend after traveling into the city,
but what was a good night for me turned into a disaster and I lost a friend. 
There have been so many things that have not went my way, but I have not
blamed others for my own mistakes. 

I have had tragedy in my life, but crawled out of that hole I placed my own
self in and went on with life. I cannot blame God, my family, friends etc. for
things beyond my control. Life does not stand still, it does not wait on you
it revolves just as the earth and it doesn't matter if you are on board or not
it will go on with or without you. I chose to live, to my my life the best that 
it can possibly be. 

In a way I am old fashioned when it comes to relationships. I do not mess 
with married men or men that are in long term relationships with women. 
I would not want some woman to mess with my man, so I refuse to mess 
with someone else man. I will never allow myself to come in second in a 
man's life. If I cannot rate number one in someones life then they are 
not worth wasting my time on. 

So I choose to be single. Being single is not the worse thing that could 
happen to someone, being with someone and being miserable is. I am
happy. I don't have to worry about cooking large meals, washing extra
clothes, and I can sleep all over the bed and there is no one to complain. 
I can come and go as I like and not have a jealous man question me
about my every move. Oh and by the way it does take a hour to go
to the grocery store and back. 10 to 15 min there and then back 
and then finding everything you need takes that long. 

I have a lot of work to do and no time for a man at this point in 
my life. If I am meant to be with someone I am sure that God 
will send him to me and I will know. You can love and never
be loved in return, but I am not worried about it in the least.
Love is spontaneous and comes around when you least expect 
it. If you dwell on finding love it will never come your way. 

I am happy, content and need no one to validate me as a
woman, for I am woman. A woman that is a survivor, fighter,
and happy in my own shell. I will never give up, I will never
give in, my morals are who I am and I would never be me
without them. I refuse to worry about what things might have
been, but focus on a future that I see as bright.

I AM ME! 
I AM WOMAN!
I WILL NEVER CHANGE,
BUT WILL REMAIN THE SAME      


Sunday, September 2, 2012

Life As I See It For Now


I  have amazed myself at how good I did at work this week. I would be lying if I said 
I had not been some what distracted by thoughts of you but I expected that to still
happen some until my heart and mind releases you completely. I know that you 
also have many things going on and do not need me to detract you as well. I so much
want your life to work out and I know it is better with out me in it. I know you'll 
understand that it is nothing personal just the fact that we both need our time to
make our own ways in life. 

You are happy and have such an amazing network of family and friends and as long as
you are happy I am happy also. You are an amazing person and I have been so very 
blessed to have had you in my life if for a short while. 

I am so busy what with my job, my diet, workouts, my babies and taking care and making
my house a home that I have no time for nothing else. My life is so hectic and I really have no
time for facebook and blogger that I cannot see me doing this much longer. I am happy with 
my life just the way it is..Single and sticking to it. It is not so bad being single. In a couple of 
years I will go to the lab and use my eggs I have back home in storage. I will pick a genius
donor and I will have a baby all by myself and raise it so. I do not have to have the craziness 
of a baby daddy.;) 

I love my life now with no dreams or expectations. I can be a good Dr and live life doing what 
I love. Believe me I am happy and looking back now wouldn't have it any other way. I have 
been shown that life is good and what you make of it. Should I decide to settle down ever I
shall choose wisely.   


Monday, August 27, 2012

My Opinions (Rantings)



Life comes with no guarantees that you're life will work out as expected or there will  
be a happy ending. I know that normalcy does exist and can be there for those brave
of heart willing to reach out and take hold of the brass ring. I say this women 
not to be mean, but we are waiting on the fairy tale that exist solely in the movies.
All men (our men) do not look like Tatum Channing or Matthew Mcconaughey
that is a fact but we love them anyway, if not we never loved them at all.  Let's
live in the real world ladies. 

 I mean how many women have lived with a guy 5 to 10 years and then there 
is a baby on the way before a man will propose to the woman he says he loves.What 
has happened to family values? I don't mean any harm to my friends that have lived
this, but when the baby is on the way and the couples marry everything is great and 
there love for one another becomes stronger. Then the baby is born and by the 
child's second or third Birthday the parents are ready to split up. How can you
get along and have a good solid relationship and then your own flesh and blood 
change it all? 

envied these people, because they had everything in life I ever wanted, but looks
can be deceiving on the outside looking in. Wouldn't it be great if love could last 
forever? It can happen if we do not take the people we love for granted and always 
show them the love and respect that we had for them the first time we kissed them 
and our toes curled. People are people and when we find them they are doing 
and saying everything right. But, you have to realize when you live a life together
there will be bills, jobs and having to deal with the house and kids. People get 
bogged down with daily life and forget what is important to them. 

I am not going to date until I meet the right person and that person will become
an extension of myself and will compliment me as well as complete me. I know 
that there are couples out there that truly love and respect the one that they are 
with, but that is what it takes is respect for each other. There is no room in love for
fussing and fighting , because no one ever wins. Everyone has different opinions on
how things should be done, but there is also a thing called compromise. I will 
hold off on this since I need to put my career first. 

I know I am different from most women and because I don't fall for a wink of
a eye and a come on line. I would never want my man to cheat on me so I have
to respect that I do not date married men or men in relationships. I respect 
men that man up and take care of there families. I respect people that are 
always trying to perfect themselves and thrive to be all they can be, 

I know that guys think I go to the extreme in body building and feel I am 
just self centered and competitive but I want to be the best that I can be and
live to be 100, but not if I am sick. Should I get sick I would bow out gracefully 
and in the words of the Eagles " It's Your World Now" I love that song. 

I wished there was no sickness, no war, no hunger, a great economy and a job 
for everyone well enough to perform it. I wished there was no disasters 
and that everyone could live in harmony. In the words of Anne Murray 
We could use a little good news today.


     

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Rantings


There are so many misconceptions  about me, about my life and who you think I am. 
Do you think you really know me? You don't know me at all. You think because I am 
smart that my life is easy, but it is not. I have to work on myself every single day and
every day I have to pray for knowledge, wisdom, understanding and strength to make
it through the day. I don't have all the answers and I have to pray for guidance.  My 
life is just that life and I have to make the best of it. I am one of those crazy ass bitches
that if I truly fall in love with a guy I will always love him.  I will stand by my man 
until the end of time. I will make him know that he is wanted, desired and I will 
leave mushy love notes every where. I want all this but it cannot be mine. I know 
it will never happen for me. I am not strong enough to break though the barriers of
your heart. 

I want to be yours and yours alone, but my work suffers from a distance and from 
where I stand it shall never be. I am a hopeless romantic and therefore I cannot 
get you out of my head but I must. I don't know why I write this you wouldn't 
get it I spray painted on your office window while hanging there buck ass 
naked  from a rope. OMG one of the signs I drank too much. 


BEDTIME GOODNIGHT 


My Life/With You/Without you

As I sit here wondering why I went out again? Why did I drink? 
My new life for now consist of going out with the girls drinking
until I I start my fellowship come September. I will have to go 
back and keep it together. I really have it bad for this guy, but
he is better off without me. 


I have to keep it together, although with him I am everything
and without him I am nothing. I have been so sad that things 
did not work out for us as I had hoped. I could only wish that 
he will know what I am going through without him. The
thoughts of what could of been cuts like a knife.


I wonder if he knows I am sitting here thinking of him this very
minute and have done so all night. That is a under statement 
and why I must try to move on and not think of him, this is why
I must get my head straight before returning to work. His memory 
lingers within me and oh how I need him, but he doesn't need me.
He has so much going on in his life and is a very special man,
a prince charming. 

Maybe someday when I don't have everything riding on keeping my 
head above water I can let him back into my thoughts and we 
can talk and I can think of him again, but for now I must marry my 
work. 

I dream of the day when this can come true, but I need for
him to fulfill all of his obligations and I mine before we could
ever happen. Then I will need a real love, someone who truly
loves me and will find my inward beauty and will love me 
for my mind. Someone who cannot exist without me. 



I WANT A NOTEBOOK LOVE
IN TIME MAYBE THERE WILL
BE SOMEONE FOR ME...