Letting Go

Good morning peeps and what a beautiful morning it is. I have been on my 

on my run and will go to the gym soon. I sit and savor my last cup of coffee 

of the day. I feel so energetic and happy as if I am floating on cloud nine today. 

I had so much running though my head lately about my life in general. Will I 

be loved? Can I be loved? I know that I love, but am afraid of the out come.  I

was listening to Garth Brooks the other day and the song "Unanswered Prayers"

started to play and I realized something that I had imagined could not ever come 

true. I had my chance or did I really? Even though, things didn't work out as 

they should have I know that nothing shall ever come of it. I want it so much

but if it was meant to be it would have happened the first time. 

Love something enough and if it was meant to be it will return to you. But, it 

needs to be welcome with open arms or it shall fly away again. To open ones heart 

is a big thing and it takes swallowing a lot of pride and opening yourself up to be

hurt all over again. No one wants to be hurt so once they have been hurt enough 

they wait on the next time and it is always in the back of your mind. They know

it is time to move on that nothing shall ever work out as they wished, hoped or

imagined. 

Life is good for you and I would only be in the way. I am meant to spend life alone and 

alone is where I will be, where I will remain throughout all time. I am not lovable or

can anyone love me, ever love me. I await a prince charming which does not exist

nor has he ever. I thought he was mine for a little while, but the world rained 

down it's wrath upon me, so that a love between us could never be. Good Night 

Sweet Prince I Set You Free.   

Exceptional Friends Thank You

I had planned to move, but not that there would be a death within

our medical family. I had many people volunteer there services to my 

moving yet again. I was so surprised when I walked into my house 

today and my friends had made it into a home for me. When I returned

home from the airport they had all stayed over last night since Tony 

was here from NYC helping me. They had brunch made for me and we 

ourselves Christened the house. 

I want to thank Tony Landon, Andrea Lawson and Philip Whitney for

taking the time out of there lives to help me. I am so not worthy of such 

good friends, but I am glad you are. Everyone needs friend for without them 

we would be lost and forever alone. I love you all and I will pay all this back 

to you someday for I will always be here just call on me. 

Everything was in chaos when I left Thursday afternoon for Utah and I had 

just moved in. I worked well into the night by myself but was not making any 

head way it seemed. Then I had to get ready to leave. Everyone had said 

they would help but I know they thought I would be to help. The living room,

den, kitchen and my bed and bath is complete. My friends even went grocery

and  stocked my cupboards and fridge. 

I feel at home now and I love the fireplace between the bed and the bath in my 

bedroom. Everyone did a great job and I love the pics that Philip took and 

how you guys worked with what you had a designed a great home for me. Now

all I need is someone to help me with the electronics. 

THANK YOU LORD FOR MY DEAR FRIENDS THAT HELP ME IN SO
MANY WAYS. I LOVE THEM SO

A Time For Everything

Ecclesiastes 3:1-15, A Time for Everything

"There is an appointed time for everything.  And there is a time for every event under heaven ~
1. A time to give birth, and a time to die; 

2. A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is planted.

³ A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to tear down, and a time to build up.
⁴ A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
⁵ A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.
⁶ A time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
⁷ A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together; A time to be silent, and a time to speak.
⁸ A time to love, and a time to hate; A time for war, and a time for peace.
⁹ What profit is there to the worker from that in which he toils?  

¹⁰ I have seen the task which God has given the sons of men with which to occupy themselves. 

¹¹ He has made everything appropriate in its time.  He has also set eternity in their heart, yet so that man will not find out the work which God has done from the beginning even to the end. 

¹² I know that there is nothing better for them than to rejoice and to do good in one's lifetime; 

¹³ moreover, that every man who eats and drinks sees good in all his labor, it is the gift of God.  

¹⁴ I know that everything God does will remain forever; there is nothing to add to it and there is nothing to take from it, for God has so worked that men should fear Him.  

15 That which is has been already, and that which will be has already been, for God seeks what has passed by."

Home Sweet Home

Good morning From My New Place

I am finding the saying true that where you hang your hat is home, yet I always feel that 

my home is in Georgia. I have always felt that the farm where I grew up was the only 

place for me, yet I know now I can adapt else where. We can do anything if we set our 

mind to it. I found myself last night thinking about my Georgia home yet trying to make 

this place into one (a home).

With boxes everywhere and not a clue where to find things I sit here having coffee and writing 

a blog that no one on earth read, but it gives me a sense of accomplishment to have written it.

I have a lot of work to do today. As I unpack each box I find it is filled with a memory. I was 

so afraid until I was able to get into my last residence and get my mama's jewelry that I went 

and got a safe deposit box so I will never have to worry about it ever again. There are some 

things that cannot be replaced. No there are not a lot of rare jewels, but my mothers rings 

daddy gave her when they married, gold rings and a lot of Black Hills Gold that mama loved

and collected each piece as if it was one of her doll collections. I don't wear a lot of jewelry

like mama did, but I will wear a piece of jewelry on occasion. Working in the hospital I 

was so use to not wearing rings and having to pop of my pretty french tips because nails

carry germs. OMG how did I get on this subject lol

Okay, now back to no place like home. I need to get started again, but I am  so very tired right now.   

I didn't go for my run since I was up so late and I need to walk around and map me out a route in

which to run. This coffee is actually good better than Starbucks if you can believe that? I did grind 

it myself maybe that is why? I went to the grocery store last night just to buy a few items, but I 

am in need of everything. It is a good thing I am domesticated and can cook and clean. I would never 

really care for a maid since I have a little OCD and no one can clean like I do. Well enough lolly 

gagging for one day I have to get to work.

 I leave tomorrow for a memorial service for a patient that I have known the last 4 years that has 

impacted a lot of lives with there very presence. God has a new angel of which he can be proud. 

I will be back on Sunday.

God Bless  

Here is to a good day Everyone

   

Another Vacation

Forget Christmas: The launch of vacation season has to be the most wonderful time of the year. From Memorial Day to Labor Day, millions of us will be taking advantage of the warm temps to indulge in some much needed R&R. Exciting! Except for the fact that most of us come back from a trip feeling like we need another vacation.  

Head to the beach. 

When trying to decide whether you should spend your week in the city, country, or at the coast—opt for the shore. According to a recent study from the European Centre for Environment and Human Health, people who went to the water’s edge for a holiday reported more enjoyment, serenity, and refreshment than people who spent time in an urban setting or wilderness. 

Stash the smartphone. 

For a vacation to be rejuvenating, you need to be completely present in the moment. “That means put away your phones, your iPads, and laptops,” You need to be on vacation in both body and spirit to reap the benefits of being somewhere else—and your pinging Blackberry doesn’t exactly help with that. “If you’re distracted on vacation, it’s not worth it".

Step outside your comfort zone. 

Sure, lounging on the beach all day with a strawberry daiquiri in your hand is a restful way to spend your afternoon—just don’t spend all your afternoons like that. Your physical and mental well-being will gain a lot more from an out-of-the-box activity, Plan activities that offer novelty and variety, like taking a surfing lesson or venturing off the resort for a local meal. 

Go out with a bang. 

While you may be tempted to jump into every single activity as soon as you land, consider holding something back. Psychologists say there’s something called the "peak-end rule," which means we remember an experience by its peak—and how it ends. In other words, save the best activity for last to have even happier vacation memories. 

Good Morning Baltimore I'm Back

I woke up way to early and ready to meet my day, so I am having coffee without the glorious Sunrise

that has met me the last 9 days with all of it's splendor and beauty. I find myself in Andrea's guestroom 

again only this time I feel better about moving on and into my new place. It is not the townhouse I looked 

at originally, but much better a friend helped me find it and it is safe and in my price range.. 

Although it has been a while since I slept in my very own bed alone I am very much looking forward to it. 

Blake and I have have salvaged as much of our relationship as we possibly can and are moving on in very

different directions at this time to explore different avenues in our lives as friends only. I find it important  

remain friends with those who we shared our lives with

I am ready to return to work, I admit I needed and desired to be off work for a while because I felt so

burned out. I had originally wanted to pay it forward and going to Kenya, but I listened to others 

instead of my heart but when it all comes down to it I am the only one to blame. It did not help when

I opened my email and this pic from a friend greeted me. Way to go Abby.

I am going to go for my run and come back and start my day. Smile today .. :)

My Love

"My love is not a joke but it is all what drives my creativity towards the achievement of 

my dearest goal of having one & only one true friend in my life."

I had closed the door upon my heart
and wouldn't let anyone in
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
but that would never happen again
I locked the door and
tossed the key as
hard and as far as I could
My heart was closed for good

Then you came into my life and
made me change my mind
just when I thought that
tiny key was impossible to find
that is when you held out your hand
and proved me wrong
inside your palm was the
Key to My Heart
You had it all along